it's not the message, it's how you're interpreting it
my mom wrote me this in an email today. i don't necessarily share her views of God or whathaveyou, but i can translate it into my own idea of everything and make it work for me.
--she wrote--
Have to tell you about Grandma's funny dream. She was laughing about it but I love it. She said it was just really brief. She was standing in a room full of people and she looked over and saw the back of a guy in a black leather jacket and she knew it was Jesus. She said she went over to him and patted him on the back (never saw his face) and said, "it's not easy being human, is it?"
I am so excited!! I feel like all of a sudden my pent-up purpose has been loosed! You won't believe this piano piece I've written and it was like no effort at all. It just spilled out of me. How in the world did it take Mr. Holland 25 years to write his Opus? Once you open the flood gates you can't hold it back. I can't wait to start on the next. All these years I've been trying to figure out what the heck I'm supposed to be doing (taking care of my family has always been first but I always knew there was more) Children's books? Songwriter? (still have an interest there) Screenwriter?? (fairly new interest) Composer - YES!! But why just that? I feel like I'd like to learn to play more instruments, learn to paint, learn photography. Why can't I be a jack of many trades? I know this has a lot to do with the fact that I finally said I'm not doing anything anymore unless I feel God is directing me. I'm not taking a job just because Dad wants me to, or Ed L. has a brother-in-law needing help or Dien Tu has the "perfect" job. I'm not budging unless I know it's God. Voila! Maybe my breakthru was as simple (or profoundly difficult, depending on your point of view) as that!
--i replied--
that sounds great! i've been feeling the same way. i feel like i've been placing too many limits on what i've been able to accomplish for a long time. but, at the same time, i don't feel like i'd be able to accomplish the things i now know i can without having to go thru that period of doubt and confusion. it's so easy to delay something until we feel we've taken care of the "important things" when it's this lack of harmony between our dreams and our responsibilities that has been impeding the gracious flow of both. i think we have to learn to stop viewing things that may seem to be obstacles as problems and start looking for the doorway that will lead thru them with/to inspiration. stop looking for the affliction and start looking for the miracle.
i'm excited! i think that, the more we learn to surrender to this, the more grace and inspiration we will find ourselves in. we will be led to the places we need to be and see the doors being open before us in continuous succession upon greater and great opportunities.
--so that was that. feel free to make of it what you will. feel free to make of anything what you will. don't worry about the other guy's interpretation; the only thing that matters is what it means to you.
--she wrote--
Have to tell you about Grandma's funny dream. She was laughing about it but I love it. She said it was just really brief. She was standing in a room full of people and she looked over and saw the back of a guy in a black leather jacket and she knew it was Jesus. She said she went over to him and patted him on the back (never saw his face) and said, "it's not easy being human, is it?"
I am so excited!! I feel like all of a sudden my pent-up purpose has been loosed! You won't believe this piano piece I've written and it was like no effort at all. It just spilled out of me. How in the world did it take Mr. Holland 25 years to write his Opus? Once you open the flood gates you can't hold it back. I can't wait to start on the next. All these years I've been trying to figure out what the heck I'm supposed to be doing (taking care of my family has always been first but I always knew there was more) Children's books? Songwriter? (still have an interest there) Screenwriter?? (fairly new interest) Composer - YES!! But why just that? I feel like I'd like to learn to play more instruments, learn to paint, learn photography. Why can't I be a jack of many trades? I know this has a lot to do with the fact that I finally said I'm not doing anything anymore unless I feel God is directing me. I'm not taking a job just because Dad wants me to, or Ed L. has a brother-in-law needing help or Dien Tu has the "perfect" job. I'm not budging unless I know it's God. Voila! Maybe my breakthru was as simple (or profoundly difficult, depending on your point of view) as that!
--i replied--
that sounds great! i've been feeling the same way. i feel like i've been placing too many limits on what i've been able to accomplish for a long time. but, at the same time, i don't feel like i'd be able to accomplish the things i now know i can without having to go thru that period of doubt and confusion. it's so easy to delay something until we feel we've taken care of the "important things" when it's this lack of harmony between our dreams and our responsibilities that has been impeding the gracious flow of both. i think we have to learn to stop viewing things that may seem to be obstacles as problems and start looking for the doorway that will lead thru them with/to inspiration. stop looking for the affliction and start looking for the miracle.
i'm excited! i think that, the more we learn to surrender to this, the more grace and inspiration we will find ourselves in. we will be led to the places we need to be and see the doors being open before us in continuous succession upon greater and great opportunities.
--so that was that. feel free to make of it what you will. feel free to make of anything what you will. don't worry about the other guy's interpretation; the only thing that matters is what it means to you.
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