more of the door

more of the door

no matter how high the drugs may get you, God will always be the most high.

chris connel aka -big c- wrote this comment on my lj (woo html skills!)

anyhow, here's the key part of what he said:

--every chalange is a big barrier. the trick / key / thing to do is to find your way around it. busting through, jumping over, making a door, FINDING a door, and burrowing under are all suitable anwsers, depending on the situation. the whole thing is bigger than we can imagine, i think. --

which was totally awesome and inspired me to (essentially) reply thusly:

--yes! just to know that there is a way to find that door is the first step to take in the process. that there will always be a way to enter a different situation.
rather than seeing the need to escape the present situation, find the entrance to the next situation in that present moment.
if we could just recognize the scale of what we've already imagined, we could begin to see how much more there will always be. we've become so dissmissive of the scope of the imagination, as if it is something to grow out of. child's play.
maybe we're afraid to grow out of our nightmares. creatures from the id!
we're afraid that the more power we take in the situation, the more power the demons we keep hidden beneath the surface will gain with us.
maybe (we need to learn) to stop trying to take power, and just accept that we already have it,
that we can always wake up from our nightmares. --

last night joe and i watched forbidden planet. my uncle marvin's favorite movie. i remember seeing that when i was just a little kid and being so totally blown away by it.
i think between that and listening to a tape of ray bradbury short stories when i was a tid bit older of a youngster were about as influential on my view of reality as anything else in my life.

we talked about all these concepts while having a smoke. sometimes i forget how long i've been carrying them with me.

the circularity of life is amazing. it's like we have to return to the innocence and wonder of our life when it was new, but with all the understanding we've since acquired to use as a new starting point. maybe that's what escaping reincarnation entails. to keep the spiral forever moving outward, to break free from the circularity.

death is just another bad habit.
and so they say that habits are diseases.

doubt is a habit too.
overcome yr doubt,
overcome yr dis-ease,
overcome death.

recognize the habits of yr demons and break free from them.
live a life of every new moment.

creativity will always overcome repetition.